Hello Lovely people
The road to homeschooling has been an interesting one and everyday i wake up grateful that God chose us for this path.
So are we CRAZY?
Well thats the reaction i have received quite often when i say we homeschool, and well frankly i can see why people would think that, because a year ago i definitely did not think i could do it either…
God graces each of us with a life journey, and when God calls he certainly equips. So 100% without a doubt if i were leaning on my own understanding and relying on my own strengths and abilities or lack thereof i definitely would have gone crazy by now!
The truth is that i desperately rely on the wisdom, strength and power of the creator of the universe every second, every hour and every minute and in doing so the peace that surpasses all understanding stays in my heart throughout the ups and downs of this adventure.
This little boy in the picture has truly known God, like i mean really known and loved God deeply from a very young age, he has always prayed with sincerity and with strong Faith in a God he cannot see but just knows is there, and this little boy wanted and needed to be home. God knew that and Jordan knew that… When Jordan was in n 4yr old kindy he watched his good friend leave mainstream school for home school and he said to me “mommy can i please be homeschooled” i said to him “Jordy ask Jesus, and if you are meant to come home to school then Jesus will make it happen”, and Jordan prayed and believed and Jesus came though.
You see this little guy had been sent to school from 3yr old kindy while i was heavily pregnant with his brother, i felt he would get more at school because he was such a clever little boy always needing and wanting to learn more and do more and i was a big slow hormonal mamma and what could i offer him at home… Well in hindsight i was wrong, he cried every time i left him at school for all of 3yr old kindy , 4yr old kindy and half of pre primary, thats 2 and a half years of tears and my heart breaking every time; but eventually those tears dried up and so did his wonder. I watched my little boy slip away into a quiet, shy, frustrated and angry little boy and i was so unsettled and sad within myself about it.
I also watched my friends who were home schoolers, and their children and inside me a longing was birthed to have my little boy home, but i just felt i could not do the home schooling mom thing. It seemed so overwhelming to have the boys home all the time, to have the responsibility to teach them, to know everything, to not have any time to myself and to move against the grain.
Anyway despite all my self doubts that longing grew and grew and grew, and i prayed and prayed and prayed and my husband questioned and questioned and questioned and my insecurities made me defensive and rude at times when i was asked questions i felt i couldn’t answer. Eventually my husband was fully on board and he even reminded me that when we were dating we discussed home school and liked the idea, i had no recollection of it hahahah. So once Greg was on board i knew with utmost certainty that it was from the Lord and the confidence, the peace and the freedom came that God was calling, and that it was going to be ok. From then on any question from people who didn’t agree, didn’t understand or didn’t like the idea didn’t feel like an attack anymore and i could peacefully say “i don’t know the answer to that all i know is that we are called to this path and we want to honour Gods call.”
God also used an incredible book that opened my eyes even further, and if you have any doubts about whether you are doing the right thing by your children by homeschooling them then you must read “I saw the Angel in the Marble by Chris Davis and Ellyn Davis”.
So thats how we came to home school our children and we are now 3 weeks in and we are finally starting to see our little boy come back, we see the sparkle coming back into his eyes, the peace soaking into his spirit and the wonder ooze out of him again and we are so grateful.